It hurts the Fvck

I don't know why they treat me like this.. Something that is different. I wonder if this is really my family because it feels like I'm definitely different.  As what other family do, they treat their daughters/sons like an angel to take care off. Even if they are teens, they still manage to spend time and encourage them. But me, Shit! just a shit! How could you call it a act of encouragement if they underestimate you. I know that I am not perfect but they acting like I need to be perfect. How can I do that if I really can't? I'm too weak for those things. 

The other thing is, if I received a recognition, instead of cheering me up, The heck! they just letting me down and give some stupid and hurtful words.

God, how can I have a great, wonderful, and loving family?